I’ve recently started to wonder when I’d start to wean my son off the breast. You see, when I found out I was pregnant, I knew I wanted to at least try to breastfeed. I say “try” because I didn’t want to put any pressure on myself if it didn’t work out and didn’t want to feel like a failure if I ended up resorting to formula from the start. As I’ve discussed previously, my desire to breastfeed wasn’t just based on the fact that research shows that it has many health benefits both for mom and baby, but also because I found it more practical and definitely less expensive.
I was thrilled when my milk came in and my son thrived (and is still thriving) on my milk. It fills me with pride every day to see my “little chunkster”, as I call him, continue to grow and develop so well on “mommy milk”.
With my first goal of trying (and succeeding) to breastfeed met, I decided to set another goal. I figured that I would exclusively breastfeed at least six months (the suggested minimal amount of time) and then start weaning right away. However, as time went by, I realized that I really treasured the time I spent nursing my son (even if it wasn’t always easy), and so, I decided that I would continue past six months but would stop when he had teeth. Well, now that he has teeth (very ouchy teeth, I should say) and is nearing the six month mark, I find myself needing to reevaluate my goal.
To be honest, I’m not ready to give up breastfeeding yet and, as the time for solids approaches, I’m feeling both the natural excitement at seeing my son reach another milestone and a sadness at the fact that I will no longer be his only source of nourishment. Now don’t get me wrong, I know that milk will still be his primary source of nourishment until he is a year old “food before one is just for fun”, but still, he won’t be getting just milk…
It would seem that I am in need of a new goal…
Now you see, my official day back at work is on August 26th. At that time, Little Dude will be just past the 9 month mark. He’ll be staying with his dad for the last week of August and first week of September and then will start daycare. What want to say is that I’ll keep breastfeeding until mid-August and then start introducing formula. The fact of the matter is, I just don’t think that I will have the energy necessary to pump to make it to one year. I think that I want to continue to nurse when it’s feeding time and I’m at home, but will give formula to the sitter and his father.
Sounds like a plan!
Except there’s something tugging at the back of my brain…
- Me: “It’s a logical decision, I’m totally OK with it”.
- My brain: “Are you sure? I mean, you could pump”.
- Me: “You’re right, but I don’t think I’ll have the energy to pump”.
- My brain: “It’s just for three months, I’m sure you’ll find the energy”.
- Me: “You don’t understand, my job is tough”.
- My brain: “But you’ll only be working part-time. Besides, breast milk is free and formula is expensive”.
Me: “I know, I know”.
*Bleh*, seems I haven’t made up my mind after all.
Oh well, *sigh* guess I’ll just have to take it one day at a time.